Monday, February 24, 2014

Timing isn't everything!

I wrote this post on December 27th, the day after I wrote this one. So much happening, indeed... and the biggest news, I couldn't even share.

The reason for the late posting is because I just found out that I'm pregnant, but obviously didn't want to share the news so early with the whole interwebs. I have this post scheduled for February 22nd, which is the beginning of my second trimester - allegedly past the danger zone February 24th, around the time that I'll be getting my nuchal translucency screening back, and also about the time we'll be "Facebook Official." However, I wanted to post now, early in my pregnancy, before I forget this crazy week I've had. Because I've already discovered that pregnancy brain thing is not a myth. I feel stupid. And I also feel a little sorry for those other mothers who I rolled my eyes at when they jokingly referred to their baby brain. It seriously feels like this kid is sucking out my brain cells and will to live already.

Oh and did I mention that I'm feeling guilty after just reading Kelly's post where she says: Fact: I think almost every blogger I follow and half friends back home announced they are pregnant this fall or just had babies. While I am thrilled for y'all, I have to admit, this was the first time I felt a twinge of jealously that I don't have kids.

Sorry Kelly! :(

I'd taken tests on Friday (20th) and Saturday (21st), since I was technically late by that point. We had our Ugly Christmas Sweater party on Saturday, of course. Where I definitely drank too much and ate raw oysters. All good things for baby Lerch, you know. But sometimes I've been a little late, so I thought that maybe this is one of those months.

On Sunday, I took four tests. The second lines were pretty faint, but they were there. Of course, Jay was at work, so I didn't think it was appropriate to text him a picture.

See, I bought these tests back in June. I went off the pill earlier this year when we went to Australia. We decided at that point we weren't trying per se, but we also weren't preventing. When we started diving this summer, we were doing a quasi-Catholic thing for prevention. Then I told Jay that I wanted to wait until our trip to the DR to start "trying" or at least to stop quasi-preventing again.

On Monday, I went to the drug store and bought tests to confirm for sure.


Oh, and then I got a new job. We were hoping to wait until around May to get pregnant. I had literally given my notice last Friday. If this had happened a month earlier, I probably would have stayed with my current employer. With the new position, maternity leave could be taken AFTER my first year of employment to be paid at a disability rate. Well, shit. Knowing that there was a possibility of getting knocked up before that year was over, I'd asked about this already and my new boss said that it wasn't a problem, but that the time off just wouldn't be paid.

If I were staying at this job, this is the exact time we wanted it to happen. Timing in our relationship has always been comical... the day that Jay proposed to me was also the same day that we were in a car accident with a tractor in Ireland. True story! Also, Jay's sister Colleen has been present for all of these moments = our engagement, our wedding, and then finding out we were pregnant. I'm pretty sure that she needs to move to Maryland and help us out with this kid.

The pregnancy is also the reason that we decided that we can't wait much longer for our dog. This is our reason that we suddenly became very impatient to get a dog. I'm hoping that Ernie is understanding. Jay is planning to call him and tell him that we're expecting. In fairness, we did tell him back when we visited in July that we were planning to start a family in the next year. Because the last thing I want to be doing when I'm huge or caring for a newborn is housebreaking a new puppy. 

How am I feeling about all of this? At the moment, I am mostly terrified and resigned to my fate. I'm only 5 weeks pregnant (which is something like 3 weeks for real pregnant), but I'm already experiencing mood swings, sore boobs, nausea, exhaustion, and the worst, which I never knew was even a symptom - lower back pain. Which of course I can only take Tylenol for. Some of these things are supposed to go away by the 2nd trimester. I am really looking forward to it! 

Jay, of course, is ecstatic about the pregnancy. He really wants someone to play with. I know he'll be an awesome dad. 

Other impressions: I think I'm having a girl. Don't ask me why, and I know that it's crazy early. The only thing I have to go on is my gut instinct and also this Chinese Gender Predictor. Honestly I'd be happy either way. I always thought I wouldn't want a girl, but now that I'm actually pregnant, I just think of the relationship I had with my dad and I want Jay to experience that same kind of thing.  

I am also happy to find out that I apparently don't have fertility issues, because I know so many women that had problems conceiving (or can't get pg at all), including some in my family. I mean, I've been on birth control for the better part of my life, and I'd like to think that careful planning and birth control pills weren't a total waste.

So 2014 is shaping up to be an interesting year. I was really hoping to meet up with my Aunt Nancy for Oktoberfest in 2014. It looks like that won't be happening now, since I have to take my maternity leave unpaid. Otherwise, I'd probably see what it's like to travel with a one-month old to Europe! 

So that is the exciting news. Stay tuned for more updates. 

Don't worry, I'm not planning to post copious amounts of crap about my pregnancy or kid. Obviously my life will change, but I am hoping to still be awesome and not have my child totally consume my life.

1 comment:

  1. Gah! This is fantastic news, Lauren! Perhaps its because I've been bitten by the love bug and my future isn't looking so spinisterish, but I am thrilled for you both! Exciting times!